Friday


I’m reading Unstoppable by Nick Vujicic
In it he talks about visiting Billy Graham.  He says Reverend Graham wishes he’d spent more time with his family and done more to show his faith and love of God.  (Can you imagine that?  He wishes he'd done more to show his faith and love of God?)
He says listening to him reflect on his life and career as an evangelist caused him to step back and think about what he, Nick, wants to look back on when he reaches a similar place in his life.
He says we should not live with the expectations that happiness will come some day after we accomplish some goal or acquire some thing.  Happiness should be available to you in each moment, and the way to access it is to live in balance spiritually, mentally, emotionally, and physically.
One way to determine the balance that works for you is to look toward the end of your life and then live so that you will have no regrets when you arrive there.  The idea is to create a clear image of the type of person you want to be as you age and the mark you hope to make, so that every step of your journey takes you closer to where you want to arrive.
He believes if you create the life you want in your imagination, it is possible to create it in reality minute by minute, hour by hour, and day by day.  Instead of a business plan or a house plan, consider this your life plan.  Some advise that the way to do this is to think about your own funeral and ponder what you would want your family and friends to say about you, your character, your accomplishments, and how you impacted their lives. 
Instead of that scenario, he prefers to put himself in Reverend Graham’s position on the day they met in his mountain cabin.  Here was this great man nearing the end of a remarkable life in which he’d done so much of God’s work, and he still had a few regrets.  It may be inevitable.  Few achieve a perfectly balanced life, but he thinks it’s worth a try.
He doesn’t want to have any regrets at all, which may not be possible.  But he says he’s going to do his best and reset his life meter on BALANCE.  He suggests we take a moment to do the same if we feel, as he does, that we all need to pause now and then to examine where we’ve been, where we are now, where we want to go, and how to become a person who will be remembered for making a positive difference in the world.

This really made me stop and think.  It's made me reevaluate, which you would have thought I'd done enough of after my diagnosis of stage iv cancer.  Things have changed since my initial diagnosis, surgeries, treatments and where I am now.  Each change has brought different circumstances with different evaluations.  I really thought at the beginning of this I would be returning to work.  Even after I had to retire I thought I still might.  I have fought with accepting I can now be an artist.  I have fought with the fact that I've always had insecurities with that and I don't know why.  
I do not want to have regrets with God, people, art, writing, with anyone or anything.  And I want to make a positive difference in the world.
Do you?  What do you need to balance in your life?  What positive difference can you make?

Tuesday

Weekend beach trip.
 Always see a lot of fishermen,
 One of the few times I've seen them catch something.








George Matheson, the well known blind preacher of Scotland, once said, “My dear God, I have never thanked You for my thorns.  I have thanked you a thousand times for my roses but not once for my thorns.  I have always looked forward to the place where I will be rewarded for my cross, but I have never thought of my cross as a present glory itself.
     “Teach me, O Lord, to glory in my cross.  Teach me the value of my thorns.  Show me how I have climbed to You through the path of pain.  Show me it is through my tears I have seen my rainbows.”
Steams in the Desert, April 8

Saturday

reading


Reading this today and realizing how close to home it hits......
Streams in the Desert April 5:
Go inside and shut the door behind you and your sons.  (2kings 4:4)
The widow and her two sons were to be alone with God.  They were not dealing with the laws of nature, human government, the church, or the priesthood.  Nor were they even dealing with God’s great prophet, Elisha.  They had to be isolated from everyone, separated from human reasoning, and removed from the natural tendencies to prejudge their circumstance.  They were to be as if cast into the vast expanse of starry space, depending on God alone---in touch with the Source of miracles.

This is an ingredient in God’s plan of dealing with us.  We are to enter a secret chamber of isolation in prayer and faith that is very fruitful.  At certain times and places, God will build a mysterious wall around us.  He will take away all the supports we customarily lean upon, and will remove our ordinary ways of doing things.  God will close us off to something divine, completely new and unexpected, and that cannot be understood by examining our previous circumstances.  We will be in a place where we do not know what is happening, where God is cutting the cloth of our lives by a new pattern, and thus where He causes us to look to Him.

Most Christians lead a treadmill life---a life in which they can predict almost everything that will come their way.  But the souls that God leads into unpredictable and special situations are isolated by Him.  All they know is that God is holding them and that He is dealing in their lives.  Then their expectations come from Him alone.

Like this widow, we must be detached from outward things and attached inwardly to the Lord alone in order to see His wonders.  from soul food
It is through the most difficult trials that God often brings the sweetest discoveries of Himself.  from Gems

God sometimes shuts the door and shuts us in,
That He may speak, perhaps through grief of pain,
And softly, heart to heart, above the din,
May tell some precious thought to us again.

Friday

catching up




Reading or finished reading Lone Survivor
These guys go through unbelievable training to become Seals.
What this man and his team went through in Afghanistan was horrific. 
You should read this if you get a chance.  We should always support our troops.

Last week I went with Corey and Minion to the park.  It was such a nice day. 









Monday I had visitors, Sylvia and Mila.  Not putting photos because I don’t know how she feels about it.  They live next door and Mila’s 3 ½ months old.  Such a cutie!  Really makes me want to see my great niece.  Tuesday, Jesse came over before she went to the dog park with Jese and then back
here afterwards.   We had a very nice visit.  Thursday, visited Mom, Stuart and Jesse again.  Mom got new cabinets in the kitchen and it looks very nice but I forgot to take pictures.
Mom's flowers are blooming and yes, my mind draws a blank on what this very common flower is called.  I blame the meds....not age.....
                                                                       

started a new painting

Monday

Work week

I decided I was going to try and make this a work
week because I've avoided it long enough.  I also
decided to make a list of what I want to get done.
This has been sitting in my art room since last summer unfinished.
#1 finish this.  It is from a photo I took when we went to
North Carolina last March.  It was the view from our 
room.  I decided to make the lamp post the Narnia lamp post.
I'm almost finished.  I'm afraid to add that it is snowing.
I don't want to mess it up but I want to finish it today.
I needed a break and I can always see mistakes when I take
a picture and look at it.  Back to work.  It will be done today,
God willing.

Sunday

It's weird seeing something you made as a
small model turned into life size.


It's really cool too!





Thursday

Reading today:


Hebrews 6:4-12

New International Version (NIV)
It is impossible for those who have once been enlightened, 
who have tasted the heavenly gift, who have shared in the 
Holy Spirit, who have tasted the goodness of the word of 
God and the powers of the coming age and who have fallen
away, to be brought back to repentance. 
To their loss they are crucifying the Son of God all over again 
and subjecting him to public disgrace. 

Land that drinks in the rain often falling on it and that produces
a crop useful to those for whom it is farmed receives the blessing
of God. But land that produces thorns and thistles is worthless 
and is in danger of being cursed. In the end it will be burned.

Even though we speak like this, dear friends, we are convinced 
of better things in your case—the things that have to do with salvation.
 10 God is not unjust; he will not forget your work and the love you 
have shown him as you have helped his people and continue to help 
them.11 We want each of you to show this same diligence to the very 
end, so that what you hope for may be fully realized. 
12 We do not want you to become lazy, but to imitate those who 
through faith and patience inherit what has been promised.



In Streams in the Desert:
We had hoped Luke 24:21
I have always been so sorry that the two disciples walking with 
Jesus on the road to Emmaus did not say to Him, “We still hope” 
instead of “We had hoped.”  The situation is very sad, because 
in their minds it is over. 
Oh, if only they had said, ”Everything has come against our hope, 
and it looks as if our trust were in vain.  Yet we will not give up, 
because we believe we will see Him again.”  Instead, they walked 
by His side, declaring their shattered faith.  Jesus had to say to 
them,” How foolish you are, and how slow of heart to believe?”  
Luke 24:25
Are we not in danger of having these same words said to us?  
We can afford to lose every possession we have, except our 
faith in the God of truth and love.  May we never express our faith, 
as these disciples did, in the past tense---“We had hoped.” 
Yet may we always say,  I have hope.”  from Crumbs



Wednesday

It seems by my post yesterday there were a few unintentional misunderstandings?
1st I was very glad Chuck woke me up to go take foggy photos.   It was great and I would like to do it again sometime!
2nd there is nothing new on the cancer fight, as far as I know. 
Talking about reading the book - Fearless by Max Lucado, some thought I was having new problems or cancer fears were getting the better of me.  Not so.  There are other things I’ve been struggling with and this book just reminds us to always trust God and He will never leave us or forsake us:
Hebrews 13:5
New International Version (NIV)
Keep your lives free from the love of money and be content with what you have, because God has said, “Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you.”

Chuck told me to look out the window to see who was visiting
in our backyard.  This robin didn't seem to be bothered by me
taking photos.




 This was a night launch a few weeks ago.  

Tuesday

foggy photos


I’m reading two books, rephrase more than 2 but these are at the top of my list right now. 
Fearless by Max Lucado and
Walking on Water by Madeleine L’Engle.
The latter is where I got my blog name from years ago.  I picked it up the other day and started reading.  It has a Foreward by Nichole Nordeman the Christian musician, singer.  She talks about having writer’s block and someone telling her to read Walking on Water and how it inspired her writing.  I picked it up not remembering any of that but being in the middle of artist’s block and not knowing what to do I thought it might help.  Nothing is by accident.  I will be starting a project today.
Fearless, Stuart let me borrow a while back.  At that time I read through it quickly and thought it was a nice little book that I really didn’t need.  When I picked it up and started reading today, it was different.  I’ve been dealing with more fears lately and now it seems a good fit.  I’m glad I didn’t give it back yet.

 Chuck woke me up and told me to look outside the other morning.  He knows
I like the fog, especially for photographs.  I wasn't too happy about it since I didn't
sleep well that night and was up every couple of hours.  Sometimes the only good sleep
I get is in the morning.  I don't know why.
But, since he woke me up I said lets go and this is where he brought
me.  The fog and cemetery - they go together well.  We didn't realize
how old this cemetery is.  There are some from the early 1800's.









sometimes, I feel like this...

this was a wild flower growing from
a vine in the tree



Corey's always said she wants this house.  It's been 
vacant for years.  The owner refuses to sell it to the church.


Chuck inspected this house years ago.  It used to be a 
church and it's very old.   There's a story that it's haunted.  He said in the attic
it was very creepy.  This photo doesn't show any of that
especially since they fixed it up.  I saw it before when he inspected
it and it used to be scary looking.  I wouldn't have
gone in the attic.

This house is at the end of the u shaped road facing the lake.
Chuck and I have always thought this would be a nice
place to live, though maybe a little scary.  I don't know
I'd have to go in and see what it's like.  Again, it's very old, on
Lake Charm Circle.



Monday

Saturday, Chuck wanted to take me to a place in College
Park that was supposed to be similar to Black Dog Salvage in 
Roanoke, VA.  It was closed.  Several businesses on the main
strip in College Park were closed.  Economy must have hit them 
hard.  We decided to go to Orange Ave. to look in some
of the antique stores.  On the way, the scenic way, we saw these
people doing some sort of charity run in their underwear.  

 County Courthouse
 Old gate between some of the antique stores.
Reading today:
part of Jesus Calling, February 17, 2014
Do not fear change, for I am making you a new creation, with old things passing away and new things continually on the horizon.  When you cling to old ways and sameness, you resist My work within you.  I want you to embrace all that I am doing In your life, finding your security in Me alone.  It is easy to make an idol of routine, finding security within the boundaries you build around your life.  Don’t try to force-fit today into yesterday’s mold.  Instead, ask Me to open your eyes, so you can find all I have prepared for you in this precious day of Life.

Then in Streams in the Desert I read;
Be patient, O sufferer!  The result of the Refiner’s fire will more than compensate for our trials, once we see the “eternal glory that far outweighs them all.:  Just to hear His commendation, “Well done” (Matt. 25:21); to be honored before the holy angels; to be glorified in Christ, so that I may reflect His glory back to Him---ah! that will be more than enough reward for all my trials.  from Tried by Fire


                                     Always seem to read what I need to hear.  Thank you.
Things I'm thankful for this day:
Chuck's faithfulness.
His hard work even on his days off.
Being able to do art.
God's gift.

Some days are harder than others but God is faithful and knows
our needs and fears and He is in control.

Thursday

What's for dinner?

I want to start another thing "What's for Dinner?" to help get inspired to cook and eat healthier.
Actually it's more to just get inspired to cook.  I haven't had much desire lately which is unusual for me.
I like to look up recipes and try new things but since Nov. - Oct. not much desire.  It's become more of a chore.  I guess I need to take pictures too but not this day.
Chuck got inspired, over the weekend, to make a stew.  We didn't have any roast beef so I used ground beef to give it some beefiness (word?).  We actually worked together on this which was nice.  We browned the beef, removed it from the pan, cooked the potatoes and onions to give them some color,
added carrots, celery (usually I don't like cooked celery but this was Chuck's idea), some flour for thickening, a can of peas, and a can of organic diced tomatoes.  Since we didn't have beef broth and I don't really like just adding water we added red wine about half a bottle, and let it cook for a while.
It actually was better the next day.  It got thicker and richer tasting.  Chuck having been a cook in the Navy usually makes a lot of something if he cooks.  We ate this for three days and still have a little left.
Tonight though, with the nice cold front that moved in, is chili with cornbread night.
Pictures next time.

Monday


If this was my last year,
What would I do?
Would I waste my time?
or would I honor you?

If I only had 6 months,
What would I do?
Would I have regrets,
Or be filled with
love for you?

If this was my last month,
What would I do?
Would I be upset,
and feel anger toward you?

If this was my last day,
What would I do?
Would I be content,
with the life I've lived for you?


Instead of making new years resolutions, I'm thinking this way;
How should I live?  What should I do that would bring honor to God?
He's already extended my life beyond the normal limits of this disease.
I wish to live a grateful and honoring life for God.
I'm going to continue the project of "One Thousand Gifts" which I kind of lost
track of last year.  I only got up to 197...
Here's the link to explain it:  The Joy Dare, Ann Voskamp
and to keep accountable I will put my list on here or facebook at least once a week.
Let's see what happens!
Today's 3:
1.  People who give graciously to help others without expecting anything or recognition.
2.  hugs
3.  memories of Dad