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Squishing December into one post, sort of...


*Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that by testing you may discern what is the will of God, what is good and acceptable and perfect.   Romans 12:2

                                                      The Gift, My Gift
                                   to myself for the month of December:

The Word.  I decided I would read scripture everyday for the month of December and write.  This is what came to my mind one morning or evening, I can’t remember.   I had it all planned in my head, how it would look, what I would write but of course I let it slip away.  I didn’t put it down on paper when the idea came to me and now I can’t remember exactly what I’d planned.  It was lovely - at least I think it was.  What’s in my head always seems so much better than what actually comes out – in writing and in art. 
I missed a few days but did much better than I thought I would.  I planned to write in the mornings but I usually ended up writing at night after everyone went to bed - just like tonight, editing and finishing.  I’m not good any more at getting things done when there are distractions around me.

*Show me your ways, Oh Lord, teach me Your paths; guide me in Your truth and teach me, for You are God my Savior, and my hope is in you all day long.  Psalm 25:4

This scripture is one of the reasons I wanted to read daily, to grow in relationship with God.  I needed this.  Everyone needs this.  Another reason I wanted to do this was my favorite Christmas I read, prayed and wrote for the entire month of December and I felt like I really celebrated the reason for the season that year much more than ever before.  I was closer to God and it was a very good experience.  Also, I have gotten off course.  Since I found out I had cancer it became very clear to me that I was to “write”.  Of course I thought I was supposed to do art, which I am, but my first priority is writing.  I was very confused about this because I am not a writer.
Even though I am not a writer I know I am supposed to write.  I may never know until I get to heaven why and I’m finally ok with it.

*I read this from Streams in the Desert 12/4;
The one thing we need today more than anything else is to spend time alone with our Lord, sitting at His feet in the sacred privacy of His blessed presence.  Oh how we need to reclaim the lost art of meditation!  Oh how we need the secret place as part of our lifestyle.   Oh how we need the power that comes from waiting upon God!

It is very fitting to where I am right now. 
Even though I wrote this December 6th it’s still relevant to me today.  I have decided to continue my plan for 2015.  I already read everyday I just didn’t write much.  So, we shall see what happens.

Christmas came and went so quickly this year.  I don't know if it 
was having so many Doctor appointments October - December, 
or being sick for 3 weeks, or taking a trip - that made it seem like it flew
past.  Corey wasn't here for Christmas this year she spent
it with James' family.  Christmas morning was quiet with the three of us. 
Jesse and her tardis cap.
 and snow boots
 probably the last year we'll have this many lights
 an awesome gift.. I already made two pillows
 I saw this at Pottery Barn and was very surprised
that Jesse remembered how much I liked it!  So 
pretty.  Even though I've put Christmas decorations 
away I don't want to put this up.  I like it too much.
I hope everyone had a really blessed 
Christmas and New Year.

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